Ever since I was little, there were no men in my life - I think this had a great influence on me. Still I always had friends that are guys all through growing up.

Then, (about 12) other girls would be looking at guys but I didn't see what was so conspicuous about them. Instead, I'd rather be looking at girls than guys.

I had boyfriends and everything but it felt wrong (so basically guys turn me off?) and if there's something missing and I'd get so upset. But then I was just told I wasn't grown up yet and my attraction for guys would develop (it didn't and now I'm 16).

When I was with my ex I definitely knew he would be the last boyfriend I'll ever have!