I am 30 years old. I just recently came out. I have always felt different. Growing up, I was my daddy's little boy it seemed. Although I'm very feminine, I always wanted to be with my dad and do manly things like fishing, yard work, and washing the cars. I was attracted to women, but didn't realize that I was gay. I got married to a man when I was 21 years old. It was horrible for both of us. I never wanted to have sex. I thought it was disgusting. We finally agreed to separate. I fought my obsession with women and dated 1 more guy. One night last summer, I went to the local gay bar and there I had my first kiss from a woman. It was magical....finally it felt right. A couple weeks later, I met someone and started dating her. I am now in my second serious relationship with a wonderful woman. I am in love for the first time in my life. We are planning for the future together. Although my dad passed away before I came out, I think he knew. My other family members are ok with it. My mom still thinks it's a phase, but she loves my girlfriend. I'm finally living.