I am 17 years old.

This one day last year one of my friends called me up with a problem. She told me that she had cheated on her boyfriend but it wasn't with another guy, it was a girl and she was really confused. I was the first person that she had told and i definitely wasn't about to look down on her for that b/c I have been absolutely in Love with my best friend for a year and a half. I've always been attracted to guys but I haven't fell in love with anybody until this girl. I could always since something there just by the way she looked at me and certain things that she would say to me. This one day last year she was fighting with her boyfriend and she said half jokingly that she should just get a girlfriend. A few days later she told me that she was Bi-curious and I told her that I was too. We called up my friend (the one who broke up with her boyfriend for a girl) and we asked her if she knew any other Bi-sexual girls that she could hook us up with. In the back of my mind i just wanted to tell my best friend that we should just go out and that i LOVED her with all my heart. I didn't have the guts to though.

We got drunk one night a few days after that. We were sitting on her bed and she was playing Nintendo and she asked if I've ever been attracted to her. I got all nervous and I looked at her and i just said yeah. she gave me the biggest smile ever and she said ditto. I was in shock and i got butterflies in my stomach and then i just started to feel really nauseous. I went to her bathroom and threw up (she still doesn't know that). we kinda stopped talking about it after that and the next day i called my other friend up to tell her the good news. we kinda talked for a little over a month after that and then she deaded everything w/me b/c she was scared of what her parent's would think then she got this other boyfriend who i hate. We remained best friends for a year after that and she finally broke up w/the moron kid. we hooked up in October for the first time cuz she put moves on me and let me tell you, That was the sweetest love I've ever made in my life. we did it again in November and it was just as good. We ended up getting drunk again last weekend and she asked me out finally but it only lasted a night b/c the next day she was all confused again. I'm really stuck in the situation here. I am finally not ashamed anymore. I waited so long for this. i just want to be like WHO CARES WHAT YOUR PARENTS OR ANYBODY ELSE THINKS???? are they there when we are all happy and cuddling?? they shouldn't be able to take away from true love. My mom kinda knows that I'm Bi but honestly i don't care if she is ok with it or not. Its my life. Nobody is going to take ME away from true love just cuz some stupid stereotypes. Obviously people cant help it if they are like this or else people wouldn't go through the hurt and the pain of this homophobic world. and whoever said you're going to hell for being gay can seriously burn in hell b/c a lot of people ruin there lives cuz of that. whoever made that up must have been gay and just so ashamed of themselves. I'm finally comfortable w/the person a am and i pray to god that my baby will be too and we can finally be together. I waited toooo long!!