To start off I want to say that I am very nervous about saying anything to anyone because if people find out it will be terrible because it will ruin my rep. Well that's how I feel now. Maybe I will fell differently later. I haven't come out yet but I don't know how much longer I can keep it in. I am very much attracted to females and I cant understand why I cant just voice my opinion on my sexual orientation. I am in a relationship with a boy now and every relationship I get in with a boy they always fall in love with me and I always break their heart. I loose interest. And every girl that I see that I am attracted I am scared to say something. I have a best friend that I will remain anonymous but I don't think that I can be her best friend anymore because I am falling in love with her. I can't tell her and I don't want to loose her friendship because it is so wonderful and I know she ain't gay cause she has a boyfriend that she is in love with. I just don't know what to do. Hopefully one day I will get the strength to come out and tell everyone what I really am and it will be okay but until then I have to remain me .......... Sunshine thank you for reading this and if you have any suggestions, let me know