I knew I was a lesbian when I was very young, I was 10 yrs. old and met my neighbor who was 21... she made me feel very special... when I tell other women this, they say I was taken advantage of... I didn't think so... I enjoyed the attention and found the sexual part wonderful... then my parents found out I was gay when I was 14 and when I reached 16... they gave me an ultimatum... get married... leave home... or we will kill u for the abomination u r... I came from a small town in southeast MO. which was less than 100 peeps... so I got married at 16... was abused when I was with them... and abused after marriage, 'cause I told him I was gay... the marriage lasted for 28 years... then I met the love of my life, my soul mate, and told my husband in 1997 I wanted a divorce... he moved out ... lived in AR then, but soon as divorce was final moved 2 VA and have been with the same woman since then... I am 49 and she is 58... just would like to talk to folks 'cause I think the attraction is beginning to fade... not the love... just the attraction