After reading some people's stories I think I'm kinda lucky, I never went through the "am I, aren't I" phase. I've always known I'm gay whether I liked it or not is a different story but I think it's safe to say that at the age of 17 I was happy with myself but not enough to tell anyone else I was gay. I had crushes on teachers but always said that I looked up to them and it wasn't a crush but deep down I knew what it was. I've never been attracted to a guy I can't imagine myself ever being with a guy the idea is not appealing at all! When I was 19 I kissed a women for the first time and I think its safe to say she blew me away completely! After that I was 110% sure I was gay coz kissing a guy had never felt anywhere near as good as that! But that romance was not meant to be and it hurt like hell when she left but it made me realize that I obviously feel more for this women then just looking up to her and that helped me come to terms with the fact that I am gay and I'm not making excuses for it, I'm not gonna hide it but I'm also not gonna promote it, its my life and I will live as I want to.