I never really linked everything together til I met the most beautiful Greek goddess when I was 17 years old, (I am 24 years old now). I was instantly attracted to her, although I wasn't really sure what I was feeling back then. Every time I saw her I was really nervous and I was almost afraid to talk to her. For the first year of our relationship we were just friends, close friends, we were one person. We spent everyday all day together if we could. I began to realize I was falling head over heels for her.. I would daydream and have dreams of kissing her and hugging her constantly.

Then things from my past started to make sense, everything fell into place. How I had always been a "tomboy", I never liked Barbie's or dolls. My sister (also a lesbian) and I always had the GI Joe's and He-Man action figures. When I was younger most people mistakenly thought I was a boy. It struck me one day that back in 5th grade I remember having a crush on my reading class teacher. She had just gotten married and I thought, I wish I could marry her.

So back to the present, my relationship with my Greek princess was the best thing that I ever experienced in my life. The first time she kissed me, fireworks went off. I had never felt like that with a man ! It clicked, and I realized this is what I am missing ! When we had sex, from the first time to the last time, it was the most amazing, passionate series of encounters. I instinctively knew what to do, I had no clue when it came to having sex with a man. I would seriously need an instruction guide. But, with her it was all completely natural.

We continued to see each other on and off for about 5 years. But, sadly things just didn't work out. I came out to myself and others and she was just not ready for that. I realized it was ok to be gay and I was proud. But, for her, it was too much. She wanted to keep everything "undercover" and under wraps. But, the passion between us was impossible to hide. Anyone with half of a brain picked up on it, even though we never kissed in public or even touched each other. I realized that I wanted something more than that. I wanted a girlfriend who was not ashamed of us or herself.

We have since gone our separate ways, but I will never forget her beautiful face and her smoking hot body. She was my first love and my Greek Goddess.