I always knew that I was sexually attracted to woman, my first sexual experience was with a childhood friend of mine at the age of 13. I went on living my heterosexual life, got married, had 4 kids and then one day I started looking at woman a totally different way and stopped looking at men all together, my husband started to disgust me. I started go to gay clubs and meeting different people, it took me a whole year before I was able to tell me husband that I wasn't in love with him anymore and that I thought I wanted to be with a woman and I needed to find that out. He cried and even tried to kill himself and I know that I put him through a lot of pain, but I had to do this for myself. I am now currently in a relationship with a woman who I adore very much and I am very happy. I never knew that this kind of happiness existed, don't get me wrong we do have our times when we argue, but the closeness and the connection that we have out ways all of that. I'm sorry for all the people that I hurt coming out but I don't regret it, I needed to find out who I truly was and I couldn't possible make anyone happy, when I was truly happy myself.