Hi, I'm a 20 yr old Kiwi Lesbian. I always knew I was gay from the age of 5yrs. I used to look at the girls like I was supposed to like them - that is until I realized at 7 or 8 that I wasn't supposed to. I lived in fear for the next 8 years of my life. Friends had gone through obvious changes and started going on dates with boys...and I kept hiding.

Coming out was quite difficult for me. I was 15 yrs and met my best friend in a Strict Christian High School. I was attracted to her and suspected that she felt the same way towards me. She dated guys and we danced around each other for a year until I told her how I felt. Not long after, my older sister (a religious fanatic) dared me to deny that I was Gay. At that point I decided not to hide and deny myself an honest life and said "Yes.. I am". It was the most liberating moment in my life.

Don't keep it in girls, it may end happily and it may not but it's your life and I wish you all an abundance of happiness.

By the way, you'll be glad to know that my best friend is still that and more to this day... sleeping soundly, while I tell you my story.