Since I was still a 4 years old, I knew that I'm already a lesbian. My acts and attitudes were like that of a boy. I was 8 years old when I had this first crush on a girl, she's my classmate. But still being young, I was hoping that someday that this kind of feeling will soon pass away when I grow older, I'm waiting for the time that I got crushes on boys too. But years pass and I became a teenager, I don't know if I'm a lesbian or not, its always girls that I'm attracted with, never with boys.

I was 18 when I first fell in love, I didn't knew that I'm in love then, its the hardest part of my life. The girl is older than me, she's 20 and I'm 18, worst, she's my roommate and friend. I kept it all inside, I was ashamed of my feelings and I knew she would get mad at me if she ever find out. She's conservative and I knew that she would be disgusted.