I'm a disgruntled "L". Being relegated to a letter between an "/" just isn't cutting it for me. I know a few "G's" who feel this way, and I never hear from any "B's". When was the last time I talked to a "Q", or should I denote "?"? Good grief, now after trying to decipher and comprehend this, don't you feel disgruntled, also? I'm tired of offending others when I say I'm Queer...especially straight Senior Citizens who demand the return of ownership so they can say it again, "Now isn't that a queer-looking house?" Then, there are those among us who think "queer" belongs in the class of citizenship of another era...just like the word "homosexual", itself. I'm a Deviant.

When did this word "deviant" become so negative? I'm not a word expert - some words that begin with an "e" and also include a "y" that doesn't sound like a "y" scare me. But I did go to an online dictionary/thesaurus (note the acceptable use of the "/" in the last instance...these are objects...not people). Yep...that's my gripe! As an "L", I'm objectified, not personalized. I'm not going to do your homework...you go look up "deviant", yourself. If you are reading this, you have the tools. And while studying this word from all angles of scholarly interpretations and vulgar layperson's usage...consider this:

We're losing the Word Game War!!!
"What Word Game War", you ask?
"The War "they" started in trying to get rid of us homosexuals!"
They are winning! I'm an "L"! They took my personhood away from me.
"Who took what away from you?"

"We did!" In our attempt to include...never to exclude, we've marginalized our truths...our own sense of identity. Every person separated by that "/" is a deviant person, a deviant, period. By looking at the numbers...we know we are abnormal (look at that definition, also). We know we are unrepresentative of the whole fabric, atypical of that same whole, and furthermore, we are unnatural of the whole. So what?

"Good grief, "L", " you say..."don't you understand the whole purpose of the G/L/B/T/? rights movement? (And...for those of you who prefer lower case: g/l/b/t/q). No, I don't. I don't know why I'm being mainstreamed into ditto existence. All I see is a dilution of our power to get equal civil rights for ALL. ALL is everybody...I do not feel marginalized in a category that includes ALL of my ilk (yeah...look that one up, too). All I'm saying is that us deviants have been so careful to be so P.C. that we've gone into major denial about our differences, our goals, our personal need of expression. My personal need of expression is to state this emphatically: I refuse to be known as a member of the g/l/b/t/? movement. And furthermore, this is terribly confusing in itself due to the transitions in which we can participate. Let's say I think when I'm young that I am a male in a female's body. Okay, big /?/ mark. But...when I really grow up, maybe I am an homosexual male. Oh.../?/. It's all deviant thought...even within the deviant community of thought. Calling ourselves "deviant" from the get go would save so many typing errors and all that energy. Then we could apply some real power to the problem that has always been at hand...the deviant segment of society that calls themselves "protectors of society" from deviants.

You can find Lyn in the Lesbian Worlds forum.